i want to find my ipad

If you have another Apple iOS device that you can log into your Apple ID and Apple ID password, you can use the FindMy app on that other device and use the FindMy app on that other device to atempt to find your iPad.

Locate a device in Find My on iPad - Apple Support

Other than this, there is no other way to locate your lost iPad.

Sorry.

If your iPhone, iPad, or iPod touch is lost or stolen - Apple Support

Good Luck to You!

Did you have the FindMy app activated/launched/working on this iPad prior to it being lost?