l forgot my password for my Apple ID and l can't use my email

Try Apples iForgot service.

1. Go to iforgot.apple.com.
2. Enter your Apple ID. Did you forget your Apple ID?
3. Select the option to reset your password, then choose Continue.
4. Choose to answer your security questions, get an email, or enter your Recovery Key.* Learn what to do if you don't receive your verification or reset email. 
5. Follow the onscreen steps to reset your password. 

After you reset your password, you'll be asked to sign in again with your new password. You also might need to update your password in Settings on your devices.

Enter the Apple (iCloud) ID, and click Forgot Password. See if you can get a Rescue or Notification email option. Link to contact Apple Support at the end of the 2nd article.

Apple ID - Manage

Apple ID – Forgot Password  *